Merry Christmas Big Boy, I was just kind of sitting here today thinking about how I miss you. Its just me and my baby boy. Yesterday was really nice. We spent Christmas Eve at mom and dads house.I'm sure you know it was with Bridget,myself,mom and dad. It was relaxing to sit amongst one another not focusing on the fact that you were not there in the flesh but to share some of the good memories that remain in our hearts about the holidays especially x-mas eve. I particularly remember I think of a couple of Christmases ago maybe 3 I don't know I'm getting older now so you know as Mom would say she has "senior moments", so I guess I'm having quote unquote junior moment laugh out loud. I remember when I picked you up I believe it was in my Honda ...but not for certain. When you got in the car you lit up like a lite brite not only because of your cheesy smile, but because you were in this all white outfit. and I remember when this particular reggae song came on you I know you were in pain because thats why i came to your house to pick you guys up. Also think something maybe was wrong with your car The fact that you were smiling from ear to ear although you were in a lot of pain was an awesome sight to see. I remember a particular reggae song that came on but when that music came on you show them kids (yes I just said them cuz that was the type of sassafras vibe that you gave when you were doing that dance )papa has not lost his strut.We all that was hilarious, and almost busted a stitch. I thought that was and still is one of the best memories that I have of you during the holiday season because you knew darn well that it was risky going to a Christmas gathering eat and you wear are this all white outfit knowing that you're going to chow down on some food. Well I will let you go about your day because I'm sure you are having a joyous occasion in the heavens above,but I just wanted to tell you I love you and that I fully understand that Christmas is not about buying presents. However I did buy you a present a few months ago. Regardless if you are here on this earth or not I was going to get you something that you do dearly admired admired about my style or swagger,were the pieces in my watch collection. I finally got you an Invicta purple watch and I was going to lay it next to your physical resting place but I decided to keep it here at my house as a tribute to you. a It sits next to your picture... teddy bear ,and the butterfly. Its just a wonderful sight to see..to have a quiet place in my own home that I can go v to go to remember you Regardless of the emotion I am feeling. I love you I hope you continue to have a Merry Christmas wherever you are and I guess I will see you soon not soon as in tomorrow but there is no goodbyes so I'll say I'll see you later.No goodbyes. Fly high..Big Boy...u High